Failure

A friend phoned me last night, she'd just driven past the ex's place of business and it was all closed up and the signs were gone and did I know about it? Nope I didnt know but I made a few calls, and it seems she went out of business a couple of months ago. I'm more gutted than I would have thought, I expected I'd think ' hah! karma' but I don't. I'm really really sad for her, she put a lot into setting up that place, we both did, weekends and every spare hour down there painting, tiling, general DIY.

I'm guessing it's a symptom of how I can't let go, I still love her and my first reaction was that I wanted to look after her and make it all right. On the topic of my enduring madness; I know she's not going to turn up at my door saying it was all a mistake, but I still expect her to, eyes red from crying, soaked from the rain, a soaking wet labrador next to her and she comes in and everything is better.

Next month she gets married, almost two years since that day we sat at our dining room where we had had so many great parties and she said she no longer wanted to be my wife.

I really am that mad - cuckoo!!

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Vita contin git. vive com eo
Life happens. live with it.