Blimey

days without cigarettes, heck knows but somewhere over 300

where have the last few weeks gone? I'm suffering from a malaise, I just can't be @rsed at the moment, which isn't to say I don't want to run about the place in girls clothes, it's just that when it comes down to it I can't be bothered making the effort. In an ideal world I'd have a makeup artist and dresser every morning to make me look gorgeous for the day ahead, probably a full time epilationist too (not sure if that exists or not but it damn well should do). I'm not sure I can even be bothered to go to Sparkle this year but I reckon I will, if only to see friends who I am sadly losing touch with and this year I shall be more focused in my socialising instead of the scatter gun approach I seem to adopt.

In other news, I had a friend over this weekend and outed myself to her, rather odd, she sent me an xmas card of a father christmas wearing stockings under his outfit and said 'this made me think of you' so I quized her about it and she eventually broke under questioning and said she could just imagine me wearing womens underwear, tch the cheek of it, so I told her and she was cool about it and borrowed some clothes too.

I came across this by accident, I thought a 10 minute video was too long to watch (ok I have a short att - oooo look a butterfly) but 25 seconds into it I was hooked, get to 25 seconds and you'll see why. Theres quite a lesson there and a helluva message to digest.