Feels like the very first time

or at least it did. I went out yesterday, after unexpectedly getting a Sat to myself I decided to dare myself to go shopping, a huge amount of procrastination ensued till it was 5pm and little shopping time left. I got made up (quite pleased with it even if I do say so) and debated outfits, it was sunny so shortish linen skirt and strappy top with ballet slippers should be ok.



Heck I was petrified, a HUGE amount of procrastination followed, oops no perfume, oops no camera, oops no umbrella oops, oops, oops. Sod it, out the door prepared to shock the neighbours. The shopping mall was 10 minutes walk away and I was a nervous as a kitten, really huge knots in my stomach, almost hyperventilating, just thinking "EVERYONES LAUGHING AT YOU!!". I had just planned to dare myself to buy some mayo but at the mall I went past H&M and that was that, two skirts (and I tried them on in the shop!) then stopped into another shop and got a lovely little white denim mini that I adore. (tried that one on too!)

And I forgot to get the mayo!

Laces

I had some fun this weekend, I had to make a trip to the UK and on Sat ended up in London for a meeting. Great mate Debi suggested we go to London together then she lose herself for a couple of hours while I met. Top idea, so we went up, dined, drank a little then made a bee line for fairygothmother I'd wanted a proper corset for ages and now was the perfect time. I didn't expect them to have an issue with me being in boy mode and they didn't "I'd like a corset for me please" "no problem, lets measure you up" the girl in the shop was really cool, measured me up, picked a corset then laced me in it (then went for a smaller size - YES!) Then she left me with great mate Debi "I'll leave you to admire yourself, shout when you want to be released" damn this woman knows her trannies.

So I bought it then tortured myself through dinner, drinks and Stomp when I wanted to go straight home before getting back to great mate Debis house for a nightcap whereupon she wanted to try on said corset (she liked it and looked great) then she wanted to lace me into it to see if she could get it right (I love this girl!!!) thus the night ended perched primly on Debis sofa corsetted with a t-shirt over it just chewing the fat for an hour or so, I'm pretty lucky to have such cool friends.

Btw if I might break the tranny code and be a bloke for a second, I have to say the inside of fairygothmother is worth a look, the sight of cute girls trying on a wide variety of corsetry is eyepopping. There was this one asian looking girl, wow wow wow!!

Oh sod it

I was cycling home last night and I thought 'sod it' and swung past the piercing place. I've got two pierced ears now - wheeeeeeee. I took a pic but I've got a transparent keeper in it and I had to zoom in so much to see itthat my ear looked horrible and hairy so no piccies.

No one noticed the new piercing today, but a couple of people noticed the original one (with the stud) the girls were cool with it 'Is that new?' 'Nice' the guys...... well why are guys such pricks? it was all pisstaking and making fun of it. I just dont want to have to deal with that crap. Why does being a guy have to involve such negativity? I'm not crying into my beer here, I dont particularly care; what I care about is that it's part and parcel of being a bloke, no wonder we want to try to be girls.

Example, a guy stops by my desk 'you got an earring!! what did you do that for? mid life crisis, ha ha ha' so what did I do? I made him feel bad about his terrible acne. So he goes off feeling bad, and I sit there feeling bad. Why can't we just interact like girls? be supportive, complimentary, nice!!

Gahhh!!!!!

and we get crap clothes!!!

Today I will mostly be obsessing over

This

and if anyone would like to buy me a present I think I would look great in this, or if anyone could just find where it's actually in stock I'd be over the moon, sigh.

Yes I know, I'm obsessing.

earRing a ring of roses

I got my ear pierced, well just one, the plan being to do one, let it heal then do the other when I can take out the earing and replace it with a transparent keeper. Now I could have done the other one at the same time but I think two earrings just look effeminate on a guy (no the irony is not lost on me) but I am now so excited at having an ear pierced I am going to have to go and get the other done even tho I need to the more expensive piercing so they can put the plastic keeper in from the get go. I'm a bit shocked, it didn't hurt, not at all, I mean nothing, zilch, not even like pricking your finger, now I know how easy it is I wished I'd just got a couple of studs pierced in for SParkle and taken them out afterwads.

Well no surprises there

So today I woke to the news that the Olympic torch had summited Everest, pretty much as I expected there was completely unidentifiable video, no panoramas, no video of anything recognisable like the Hilary step, and most telling of all, no images that had the metal tripod that marks the summit of Everest, oh and mounteverest.net reported that the Chinese party summited "in spite of climbers watching live from Kalapattar spotting them aborting above second step.". My conclusion - they faked it.

It's so unecessary, theres no shame to failing to summit Chomolungma to use the Tibetan name. If they had been a bit humble from the start and came down saying 'we gave it our best shot but she didn't let us go up' they would probably been applauded. Instead they arrogantly asserted they were taking the torch to the top then stationed armed men with permission to use lethal force to cover up any fakery. They would honestly have seen men shot dead to make sure their stupid little flame was safe.

The sentiments from the climbing sites I read was 'Now go Home' I couldn't agree more. Oooo the more I read about this evil crowd the more angry I get. I'm going to stop now because I could post link after link about these executing, organ harvesting, human rights abusing, torturing, tibetan occupying liars. Everest.net was cyber attacked after posting critical articles, I wonder if this site will pop up on their raday.

I'll not watch one second of this tainted Olympics.

A bit of politics

Years without cigarettes - ONE!!!! as of today Sunday 4th May 2008 wheeeeee.
Days without Wine - uh oh this is bad, I can't remember, either it's been too little wine to rememb er or too much to remember.

Big disappointment yesterday, I had arranged with friends to get my ears pierced, they were getting tattoos and I was getting my ears pierced but one of them fell ill and the tattoo fest got cancelled boo hiss, I am so doing this and in time for Sparkle.

This week was riot day in Zurich but I gave it a miss this year, theres only so much getting tear gassed you can have before it stops being fun, thats not the politics tho. The politics are me wondering what the trannisphere thinks of the Beijing Olympics? This tranny finds it abhorrent, I'm disgusted that the olympics was awarded to an oppressive dictatorship to whom human rights is an inconvenience. I am incensed at the lies coming from Beijing, the Dali LLama behind the tibetan riots? come off it! believe a regime with a history of torture, execution and organ harvesting, or a man respected for his peaceful views. It wasnt even close to being believable and thats what winds me up the most, some assumption that we are so stupid that they dont even have to try to make up a good lie. Oh how I wanted Gordon Clown to make a statement along the lines of 'We are deeply concerned at the allegations of the Chinese authorities regarding the culpability of the Dali Llama in the recent protests in Tibet, we have offered the assistance of Scotland Yard in the investigation and look forward to the arrival of the evidence' or some such words.

I understand the arguments about being inclusive and you can't talk to someone if you are not talking to them but come on, theres talking to them and theres awarding them the olympics, what a joke, so much for the olympic ideal.

So what triggered my outpouring, it was this: Having a small love affair with the big mountians I have been following the story of the torch going up Everest. Well trying to follow it given Beijings love of media control and manipulation. I've been suspicious from the get go, you don't just take something up Everest, you *attempt* it, now they have shut down the mountain to make sure theres no one around to see whether they do it or not, they are going to fake it, I just know it. In the spirit of the Olympic ideal the have got Nepal to site a military checkpoint at base camp with authority to use force and a mountaineer has already been removed for daring to have a tibetan flag. Damn I am so angry.

and I hope I have no Chinese readers who take offence because I am not having a go at the people of China, on my one trip there I found the ones I met to be lovely but hey, your dictators suck.