At last!

Yayyy I went out, properly! Back to the venue of my first ever trip, Club Angelic at Pink Punters, the theme was Bunny Girls (or bunny gorillas perhaps). What a great crowd, I was a little worried about turning up on my own but I needn't have, everyone friendly as always. Had some lovely compliments on my makeup, outfit and one spectacular compliment; I'm very self conscious about dancing, I realise that being male, white and heterosexual is not a combination conducive to dancing, 'being Gillian' allows my inhibitions to drop a bit and I can enjoy a good boogie while still accepting that I tread the fine line between dancing and fitting. I asked this girl I met there if she fancied a bop (how school disco of me :) and I was blown away she said 'hey a tranny that can dance' - I was beaming. Fortunately Debi Spopoo wasn't on the floor at the time, now theres a tranny that can dance.

I didn't do the bunny girl thing, it being so long since I'd been out I wanted to relish doing it 'straight' so just jeans and a blouse of cuteness for dinner then black mini, boots and gorg Next top that got a lot of comments (it's acetate, really touchy feely). I was shocked how good some of the girls looked, I expected tranny bunny girls to look baaaaadd, not at all. The rgs in theme did look fantastic tho, I pinned the tail back on the lovely Myffy, a very small pin, a dark club, nails and sozzled, it took about half an hour to reattach the sodding thing, I'm sure she thought I was touching her up :).

Had a good natter with some people I hadn't shared time with before, a good natter was had. 4am finish then up early to get down to londonium to cheer on a friend in the marathon then flight and home for half eleven zzzzzzz.

Err piccies- never took my camera out of my handbag, was just chatting or boogying all night.

Reconnecting with fear

I went out yesterday, I decided I needed some makeup practice before the weekend in the UK so I got made up, made up led to dressed up (about an hour of different outfits, the spare room is still a disaster) dressed up lead to standing behind the door heart pumping which lead to going 'Sod it' and leaving the flat dressed. Didn't do much, I took my recycling up the street to the bins, then carried on for a 10 min walk round the neighbourhood.

I think I left this too long, it was no biggie, just a wander up the street, flat shoes, jeans, blouse but I was bloody scared. When I got back it all felt unreal, like a dream. It also felt very scary and natural at the same time, as I walked down the stairs (top floor flat) I almost forgot I was dressed as a girl, it was nice to walk down the street, I think I got a few looks, but no comments (the swiss are much too polite)

Slightly ashamed about how nervous I was but a bit pleased at doing it at last. Not before time methinks.

That's 4 now I think

Frohe Ostern.!

Had 3 friends over this easter I had had someone staying with me for a week and deprincessed the flat already and as one of the girls brought her new b/f with her, (he was the only one who doesn't know about Gillian), I left it de-princessed. What a weekend, so hectic, so much booze, too many cigs, so much fun. Boating in the sun on lake Zurich, Shopping in Zurich and Basel, dinner at an awesome restaurant overlooking the city, some cycling and a days skiing to finish off. The b/f had never been on skis before and did damn well, just wish we could have got him up high to see some scenery.

One of the girls asked to borrow a belt one night before we went out, that sort of thing really tickles me , just the casual acceptance thing, 'yeah I know you're a bloke and you like to dress as a girl and I don't give a stuff.

Last night we ate at the Movie restaurant in Zurich, it's themed and cheesy but it makes me laugh, all the dishes are named after films, 'Breathless' - Garlic Bread. 'Some like it Hot' - Thai Red Curry, the side dishes are under the heading 'For a Few Dollars More', every now and then all the lights dim, and screens drop from the ceilings to show trailers for upcoming films for a couple of minutes.

Over dinner slightly out of earshot of her b/f one of the girls said 'So will you and Karen (the other girl) wear matching frocks and be bridesmaids at our wedding?' I'm taking it as in jest but I did assure her that I would love to. Oh bridesmaid update #2 the hottest possibility for 'Gillian the Bridesmaid' is not getting married this year after all, next year at the earliest, oh well it's for a great reason as her fledgling business is taking up more time.